Poem: Am I?

Am I? - Laurence Anderson

I know I can’t have you
I know you can’t be mine
But I long for your connection
Every single night

I long to talk with you
And hear about your day
Whether it was all mundane or if it was just the same
I want to be with you
I want to feel your touch

But I can’t have you
Due to my own mental blocks
It really frustrates me you should know
Why is it so hard am I not good enough

Am I what you’re looking for?
Am I?
Am I?

Guess not…

First poem I’ve written in a LONG time.

4 Responses to “Poem: Am I?”


  1. 1 Wes Murray

    You have character, great emotions, intelligence & a great LOVE for others!

    EVERY Woman in the US is really seeking ALL those personality traits in a man!

    Do you know why I know this to be perfectly true? Because I also have these personality traits & it took SO LONG for any nice woman to know that I had those great qualities…

    Why? Cause I couldn’t see those qualities within myself. I was always looking at what others PUSHED onto me…

    You are too BIG! You’re UGLY! And ALL those other negative qualities…

    Then a kind older man told me that ‘I was OK!’ He also told me that some women ‘actually’ liked larger men & all the personality qualities that I possed!

    Huh?

    And that ‘IS’ the truth! Most women like their Fathers. When their Fathers are big men, those women will also usually like big men in their lives. It’s a biological & psychological reality.

    So, I kinda started over again… seeing all of my positive qualities & really turning away from my other negative qualities!

    And yes, after some searching, I found a very sweet young women who enjoys most of the things in my life… But most important, she ACCEPTED me - just who I was!

    Oh! I’m still a little bit BIG, but I was NEVER really ugly & my sweet wife even thinks I’m cute!

    We have been married for over 26 years now. We have three Sons - my eldest Son in working in Atlanta with a big salary, my middle Son is a Resident Doctor & my youngest Son is a Senior in a Southern University.

    Plus, my wife & I enjoy each other! And we have a lot of fun together… even at our RIPE OLE age…

    Lastly, YOU ARE OK !!!!
    I ACCEPT you as a Man!
    I ACCEPT you - just as you are!

    Did you catch that?

    YOU ARE OK!!!!
    I ACCEPT you as a Man!
    I ACCEPT you - just as you are!

    I always told my Sons that they were OK! And they were!!!!

    Even when they kinda ’screwed up’ a bit, I still told them that they were OK & ACCEPTED by their Daddy !!!!

    When you have ‘Mental Blocks’ or think you are ‘Screwing Up’ - please remember that I still ACCEPT you as a Man! YOU are OK!

    I’m always open to personally telling you - in my emails…

    YOU ARE OK!!!!

    your new Friend,

    Wes Murray

  2. 2 Wes Murray

    You have character, great emotions, intelligence & a great LOVE for others!

    EVERY Woman in the US is really seeking ALL those personality traits in a man!

    Do you know why I know this to be perfectly true? Because I also have these personality traits & it took SO LONG for any nice woman to know that I had those great qualities…

    Why? Cause I couldn’t see those qualities within myself. I was always looking at what others PUSHED onto me…

    You are too BIG! You’re UGLY! And ALL those other negative qualities…

    Then a kind older man told me that ‘I was OK!’ He also told me that some women ‘actually’ liked larger men & all the personality qualities that I possessed!

    Huh?

    And that ‘IS’ the truth! Most women like their Fathers. When their Fathers are big men, those women will also usually like big men in their lives. It’s a biological & psychological reality.

    So, I kinda started over again… seeing all of my positive qualities & really turning away from my other negative qualities!

    And yes, after some searching, I found a very sweet young women who enjoys most of the things in my life… But most important, she ACCEPTED me - just who I was!

    Oh! I’m still a little bit BIG, but I was NEVER really ugly & my sweet wife even thinks I’m cute!

    We have been married for over 26 years now. We have three Sons - my eldest Son in working in Atlanta with a big salary, my middle Son is a Resident Doctor & my youngest Son is a Senior in a Southern University.

    Plus, my wife & I enjoy each other! And we have a lot of fun together… even at our RIPE OLE age…

    Lastly, YOU ARE OK !!!!
    I ACCEPT you as a Man!
    I ACCEPT you - just as you are!

    Did you catch that?

    YOU ARE OK!!!!
    I ACCEPT you as a Man!
    I ACCEPT you - just as you are!

    I always told my Sons that they were OK! And they were!!!!

    Even when they kinda ’screwed up’ a bit, I still told them that they were OK & ACCEPTED by their Daddy !!!!

    When you have ‘Mental Blocks’ or think you are ‘Screwing Up’ - please remember that I still ACCEPT you as a Man! YOU are OK!

    I’m always open to personally telling you - in my emails…

    YOU ARE OK!!!!

    your new Friend,

    Wes Murray

  3. 3 Daniel

    I think that Wes Murray is hitting on you…

  4. 4 C.M.Sevilla

    I second that thought.

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